he SAID, she SAID

she can't read it
she's trying to find the way out
but she stil trapped inside

he said,
"i thought you can change the way i am--egois,proud.
unfortunately, you don't.
all people are the same.
you just don't get it.
so, just for--get it."

she said,
"i want you."
"i want you to prove that you are different from the other."


he said,
"take me away, just you and me."--i like this sentence. aww...-

she's speechless when he said,
"you talk nonsense."

she keeps thinking, what should she do?
guess, she is not good in this stuff
guess, this is the reason why the other he left her
she keeps thinking, what she should do?

0941hours
1st May 2009

..readers' corner..
this is the first time i create a post in the morning.
at first it feels odd. people move everywhere, while i'm sitting here,
in front of my notebook, typing these.. huhu!
anyway, about this post, i pity that girl. kasian ba..
she asked him what she should do, he didn't answer.
what if she goes away and find a new 'he'. aisey!
kan melepas that he--refers to person i wrote here, in this post
or maybe a new 'he' will finds her, or take her away.. aisey!--i hope so!! xp
about the sentence, "take me away, just you and me",
i like this sentence! huhu! it's the same as rainie yang's song lyric--tai wo chao which means take me away.
and avril lavigne's song too! haha!

gawai kitai!!

im now in CC at Mukah..
ya3..
ba Mukah meh ku tok..
Nda sabar ku ka pulai k Sibu..
ka rerigau sebelah pasar diak..
ngirup ai teh C peng, Green Tea ngau kekaban..
makai bakso n rojak ba kdai CT NURALIJAA ba seberai esplanade diak..
adehh.. baru jak ari 5 ari nyak aku sampai OYA..

ya3..
i LOVE OYA meh,
tapi munyi tai ajar cikgu aku,
hujan emas di menua orang, hujan batu ba menua kediri, nyamai gik gak menua kediri..

tapi kan, diatu dah ka masuk pertengah bulan 5,
nda lama dak gak gawai..
dah la cuti laun mat start--baka ke aku agik skulaa
tapi bena ba, ti cuti laun setat laun gak kami nurun k kampung
laun gak la kami pulai mudik k sibu
nda uluh aku ngabang2 ngau bala kehakk sibu.. haha--yg oenting aku yeL ukai kehakk..

ndai asai ka nyambut gawai..
ti maya mit suba, gawai nyak maksud ia , bc mayuh pekit maya ba rumah panjai..
mda uhang tuai ngansar k kaki ba ruai..
mda uhang tuai ngirup2, bertaban lari ba ruai..
diatu, things are not the same..
ndai gik berpekit..
ndai rancak uhang tuai ngansar k kaki..
sejak peristiwa nyakk....-adalah, sedih jak ka mention..

dah la mimit gik urang pulai kampung..
ti mayuh pun ukai ku ngelala urang.. haha
orang sibu la kununn--ukai urang ngungun.. haha

nda sabar ka ke sibu..
ka begulai ngau bala kaban belayan
x lama nda bala kaban belayan nurun sekula ba menua bukai gak..
aku tok mpai nemu kini penuju..
ngarap ke aku bulih ba kuching--maktab
ti nda, sigik terengkah ba pulau pinang meh ku--mak i...
ma meh perintah ngai nganjung ku jauh gik, ke menua thailang karr.. alang2!!
kitai ka semak, diberi ia ngejauh2nyak!!
gaga ku ba menua urang ko ya!
ne..
malu ya..
nda mu malu..
sedey ehh..
ngarap k ulih mai diri maya ba menua urang..
ngarap k aku bulih ba maktab meh..
barang sapa k maca tai ditaip ku tok, ang nda besampi k aku bulih maktab..
anang gak kitak besampi ngambik ku nda bulih..
igak gak nda kasih k aku.. hahahaah!!
nyak jak meh sesi iban 'remix' tok.. haha
tusah anak iban nda fluent in iban.. ka fluent in english jak..
bm pun kucar kacir.. haha
semua language ku kucar kacir magang..
sigik nda minat sastera ari suba ku..
ka ya sastera iban, eng, bm, cina..
semua i don't like.. haha
sebedau aku ka ngabis k lica ku k nda nemu abis tok,
aku ka meri besai terima kasih ngagai kitak k nda mu lelak maca tai ditulis aku..
haha!
love,
-yeL.09-

LosT n founD

haha!
cant help laughing n thinking of the things we did to my bf-bezfren- on the 6th may. haha.
i was too happy that all of the stuffs that haunt me seems to fade away..
dunno..
kali, taken by the laughter, or flow with the air 'in' LAKEPERMAI laz day. haha.
since that day, i found myself back!
i thought all this while i was pretending to be happy, though i was broken--to pieces.
on that 6th May--the best day i had ever went through this year, i found myself didn't pretending to be happy, silly, karezi..
i was n am HAPPY, SILLY, CRAZIE!

yah!! im back..
ceh,-kini la aku ngelama tok- haha!
and i love my p.o.c.k. team!! haha
a lot!!
not a parking lot yah!

then i realized that finding a parking lot for my 'car' is not that important.
it's okay to park my car everywhere..
it's okay to ignore the 'red color' flashing from that tall black n yellow thing.
it's okay to go through that double line on the road..
it's okay to not to stick that big letter on the car's screen--big P letter
after all, who would care?
it's me who breaking the rules,
it's me who feels the excitement..
and..
it's me who will face the music!

so....
i've decided not to be too careful
too careful will hurt me so mush
cause i laf me sow mush
let the glass breaks..
let the water splashes..
let the building corrupts..
let it be..
let me be..
i found myself back!

the one who will laugh when i like to
the one who never afraid to hurt others--literally
the one who cry when i feel pain, eventhough thousand of people watching me--no more numbness inside me..
no more..